Sweeter Morning

image courtesy of The View from Great Island

Warm now on the edge of summer.

Still, I shiver gathering coffee to my lips.

I war with the craving for a cigarette.

When I take the morning deep into my chest,

The air lacks nicotine.

Years since I kicked that habit,

Yet some mornings it does seem

Nothing could be finer

Than caffeine and nicotine—

But it would not be you and me

Starting our day outside on the covered patio,

Watching for butterflies,

Drinking our coffee and smoking our cigarettes,

Dreams drifting in clouds of nicotine and steam.

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Annette Kalandros

I am a retired teacher, enjoying everything that retirement means. In addition, I have been active in the LGBTQ community since I was four years old and marched my Ken doll with all his little Ken accouterments to the big metal trash can in the yard. Yes, I dumped Ken, along with said accouterments, into the can and slammed the lid on. My two Barbie dolls lived happily ever after.

10 thoughts on “Sweeter Morning”

  1. Congratulations on your quit, and good luck keeping it! I’m still a cigarette addict, and coffee is my #2 addiction.


    1. I’ve quit cigarettes for two years at a stretch. Usually it’s a stressful situation that starts me up again. It’s been five years since I gave them up. Once in a great while, I have a vague urge for one in the morning. But this past week, hearing my little dog likely has blood cancer almost has me buying a pack. It’s hard habit.


  2. Still craving for nicotine? I remember many years ago (can’t remember how many), when I gave up smoking cigarettes, I knew I wasn’t going back smoking, but liked to inhale other people’s smoke. That was part of me quiting smoking gradually, step by step. With time, I surprisingly found myself unable to endure the smell of smoke. It just happen. Suddenly, I couldn’t bear this smell that once I was so addicted to. A miracle

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    1. I can’t stand the smell anymore myself. Just some mornings, like late spring and early summer mornings, I still feel the craving for one with my first cup of coffee. But I think it is more the act of sitting and talking with my wife in the mornings over our coffee and cigarettes that I crave. So it may not really be the cigarettes really at all—

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    1. Just coffee for me these days. All my bad habits have been conquered. Thus, I’ve become an old and boring retired teacher! No carbs, no cigarettes, no alcohol—


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